Developing 'Little One'

A while ago, I posted this blog about the development of my inner 'little girl'. At that time, I was really just starting to discover how this would work for me, and since then my 'little one' has developed much further. All of the 'little girl' characteristics that are surpressed within my adult personality have been fused into the behaviours of 'little one', creating an alter-ego that I naturally slip into and out of.

I am still not quite settled on how old 'little one' is yet, but she is somewhere between 7 and 9. However, she is incredibly intelligent for her age, and therefore can be a bit of a smartarse. She likes to think that she is very grown up, and would never ever tell any of her friends that she still likes to curl up on her Mummy's lap with her dummy and teddy bear and drift off to sleep. She is a bit of a tomboy, and is incredibly impulsive; she desperately needs to learn to think through the consequences of her actions because she often gets herself into trouble. She HATES pink frilly things with a passion because they make her feel like a 2 year old, and she doesn't like it when people point out that she isn't really independent but reliant on her Mummy to choose her dresses for her. The only thing that 'little one' is really missing at the moment is a name, but that will come with time and as she develops further.

Until recently, I hadn't really spent any extended period of time in my 'little one' headspace (I use the word 'headspace' rather than 'role' because it is occurs far more naturally than  roleplay). I tended to dip in and out of it, sometimes more often than others. However, last weekend I spent far more time being little than being big. Being around two people to whom I was submitting made this very easy, and they helped to create the right atmosphere to allow me to do this in lots of very subtle ways. Quite often, I was talked over as plans were being made. They would talk to each other about me while I was still in the room, but not acknowledge that I was there. They would adopt a patronising tone of voice when talking to me occasionally. My response to this was to go very deeply into 'little one' mode, entertaining myself while the grown-ups were having boring conversations and getting stroppy when I didn't get my own way. Strangely, being 'little' also helps me to be submissive, and it meant that all of the play that happened was far more intense and fulfilling. When I was flogged, I was reduced to happy tears fairly quickly because I didn't feel the need to put up any physical or mental resistance to what was happening to me. I have said before that reaching this point where I don't want to resist is an incredibly special and powerful feeling, and it is something that I would like to happen far more often in my play. Both with and without the help of Little One.