The Blurb

Both ski socks and flip flops are pretty everyday objects (if you are the kind of exciting person who, like me, likes to go to snowy mountains and tropical beaches, not if you are a boring recluse). Most of what I write about will, I suspect, seem slightly crazy to your average 'vanilla'. But, to me, kink is so integrated into my life that I sometimes don't notice that it is a bit odd.

Ski socks and flip flops are also both totally contradictory to each other. This, in part, reflects the fact that I go by the online psuedonym 'Walking Oxymoron'. But it also explains me very well. I do not look like someone who you might imagine to be a sexual deviant. When out and about, I don't act any differently from anyone else. In fact, I like to think that I appear fairly innocent and demure.

This blog is about the other side of me - my dark side. Specifically, the emotional side of it. Behind the whips and canes and other fun things is a variety of very normal 'vanilla' feelings. They just choose to display themselves in some unconventional places...

Monday 8 November 2010

Kinky Wishlist

*Originally written 1st August 2010*

If you had asked me a year ago, I would have struggled to come up with anything that I really desperately wanted to try bdsm wise. Not for lack of experimenting, I just felt that no new experience would give me anything different to what I had already come across. Yes, I know that I was naieve. Extremely. With retrospect, it was because I was bored with where I was in life. But now, I am hungry for every new experience that I can get my hands on. I'm getting greedy - the more I try (and, believe me, I love what I am experiencing at the moment), the more I want to try. What I have now realised is that my bdsm cravings are incredibly dynamic things. There are things that I would love to try now that I would never have considered in the past. Likewise, some things that I have always wanted to do seem to hold no interest at the moment. So I figured that I might make a kinky wishlist. Not just as a not-so-subtle hint, but also as a record of exactly how I am feeling towards bdsm at the moment. Something that I can look back on in the future and think 'Huh. Thats interesting. But look at me now!'


My Kinky Wishlist
In no particular order...
  • Fear play. The kind where I am actually scared. Not just pretending to be scared but knowing in the back of my head that nothing is going to happen.
  • Sensory deprivation.
  • Interrogation (again, realistic).
  • Kidnap.
  • Topping a sexy girl.
  • Water bondage.
  • Waterboarding.
  • Anything else with the word 'water' in it.
  • Humiliation. Something that I have tried before, but that has always left me feeling 'hmmmm, this really should be making me feel tiny and worthless and embarrassed. But it isn't. So I'll pretent it is.' Thats not enough. I want to be so degraded that I am in tears.
  • Kitty play.
  • Stinging nettles (though I have a suspicion that I may be disappointed).
  • Anal hook.
  • Nasal hook.
  • Hair suspension.
  • TOTAL immobilisation. Vac bed perhaps?
  • Forniphilia. Just curious really.
  • Dacryphilia. I am really getting into this now and want to push it further.
  • Objectification. Not just as a part of a scene, but as something that lasts a whole evening, for example. Basically, I want to be made to feel worthless.
  • Needles.
  • Forced orgasms. Again something that I have done, but I have this lovely image of being very tightly restrained and a magic wand relentlessly held in place...
  • Heavy breath play.
  • Orgasm control. Again, something that I have done before, but I want to try it at a more intense level.
  • Learning how to tie people up and make them look pretty!
  • Emotional masochism. Big time.
  • Roleplay. Particularly prison roleplay. Over an extended period of time, and in a fashion that makes me really believe it!
I suspect I will be adding to this over the next few days!

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